Social obligations, family business, school stuff

Lately, there's a lot going on. Not that I'm complaining, I love what I'm doing, even though it makes me feel like I just wanna crash and sleep the whole night through after that. It's my last semester here in UTAR, and I do not want to waste it. Just a mere 9 more weeks, excluding exams. I will miss it here. I've met great friends, good friends, and just mere friends. Great people, good people and people.

Anyway, what was up since my last post? Let's see, Father's Day family gathering, Bukit Tabur hike, outing in search for food with coursemates, 2 performances with my friends, Kuantan trip, movie trip, eating trip, weekly lab reports, almost daily lab sessions, yam cha session, mobile health clinic helper, Music Club post mortem and handover session that was kinda crazy, bla bla bla.

Schedule packed to the brim, it's amazing I can find time to study. Haha. I'd better study. Notice that thesis writing wasn't included in the list above. I, um, yeah, well, I'll leave that for slightly later. Music performance. My friend, he's a good singer, been asked to perform a few of his own composings. So, I was his pianist, a bit of a sucky pianist. I really need to get over my stage fright. Practice sessions are of no problem. Ok, deep breathe, stay calm.

I'm having a bit of problem with my social life at the moment. I say social life, because it is part of it. Anyway, won't go into details at the moment, I'll just do what I've always done, just go with the flow. Somehow, it may hurt, I may hurt, but I guess, it'll be alright in the end. Fate always does that to me. Never failed me. Talking won't help right now. So, it's the silence that will determine the outcome?

By the way, for those who do not know, and for those who keep asking me: No, I haven't spoken to him in months; yes, I know where he is and what he is doing, but that is of no concern of mine; no, I would not mind if we go out as a group and ask him along; yes, I do mind that you keep bugging me about something that has happened 9 months ago; yes, I do think about him and the happy times we had, but we're just friends now, nothing more, nothing less; and finally the BIG QUESTION: No, I do not have a special someone right now, do you want to introduce someone to me?

Phew and oh dear!! Week 6 is starting tomorrow.

Busy

Very occupied at the moment, thos blog will be temporarily closed.

Occupied..

Been kinda occupied lately. Will update soon.

By the way, this is my Welcome Freshmen Concert committee. Love them so much! Able to work with them well, and everything went on smoothly. My first major event as chairman, and I'm glad it all worked out. Thanks to them.

Top row left to right: Yih Jun, Juen Sern, Chi Wei, Sau Keong, Kee Chean, Kheng Hooi
Centre row left to right: Sze Yun, Sook Wen, me, Adrian, Pei Chyi, Chin Wei
Bottom row left to right: Hon Sern, Wei Jie, Yi Gang, Cheu Chyong

=]

Reflections and Wishes

So I'm 21. Let's see what I have learnt so far.

1. Marks doesn't mean anything to me. But doesn't mean that I don't study.
2. Friends do come and go. Friends get on my nerves. But they are still friends.
3. Being the boss doesn't mean having to control everyone. Why struggle to keep the power when I can give the power to people and lessen my own workload?
4. There is a way to rouse Tango. Just take away his toys.
5. Life is short.


If wishes do come true, I have a really long list of what I want. Here are the few main ones.

1. World peace. No more wars. No more Osama, no more Tamil Tigers, no more missiles, no more American soldiers in Iraq.
2. Malaysian politicians behaving properly. I, we don't want childish, immature, selfish, arrogant, ignorant leaders.
3. For Malaysia to be a country where people's voices are heard loud and clear. Also all Chinese, Malays and Indians have equal rights (although this is impossible due to the 'ketuanan melayu').
4. All the animals in the world living happily without fear of being caught or killed due to forest logging, poaching etc. And people being responsible for their pets, not dumping them as and when they like.

Growing up

I want to grow up, as in being mature, physically, mentally and emotionally.

Age is irrelevent.

By law, I am almost an adult.

But am I an adult?

Am I grown up?

The Voca People

They are good, but their costumes are kinda weird...
Acapella and beatboxing. Totally no other instruments execpt what comes out from their mouths! Awesome!




Info:
Voca People is an international vocal theater performance combining vocal sounds and A Cappella singing with the art of modern beat-box.

Tracklist:
1. Johann Sebastian Bach - Toccata and Fugue in D minor
2. Hallelujah
3. The Entertainer
4. Mr. Sandman
5. Glen Miller - In The Mood
6. Elvis Presley - Tutti Frutti
7. Beach Boys - I Get Around
8. Doobie Brothers - Long Train Runnin'
9. Madonna - Holiday
10. Michael Jackson - Billie Jean
11. Eurythmics - Sweet Dreams
12. Nirvana - Smells like teen spirit
13. Spice Girls - If you wanna be my lover
14. Los Del Rio - La Macarena
15. Rednex - Cotton Eyed Joe
16. Britney Spears - Hit Me Baby One More Time
17. Baha Men - Who Let the Dogs Out?
18. C+C Music Factory - Gonna Make You Sweet (Everybody Dance Now)
19. Will Smith - Switch
20. Madagascar vs. KK Project - I Like To Move It

Strong?

'You're so strong emotionally', that's what people tell me.
They say I am in control of what I feel, and that I am too emotionless for my good.
They say I can control myself in public, and not breakdown and make a fool of myself when something happens. Lauging, yes; angry, yes; others, no.
They say no one knows what I am thinking.
They say I can just stare into space, and no emotion crosses my face.
They say I exhibit nothing, even when I am alone with them, and something bad has just passed.
They say I just say 'I'm fine' and that's the end of discussion.

I am not.
I am not strong.
I am not strong emotionally.
It's just a front that I've put up.
A barrier.
A barrier that protects me.
A barrier that protects me from the world.
I used to have this barrier.
But it's gone now.
And I have to protect myself even more than ever.

Everyone sees me laugh.
But no one sees me cry.
Why should they?
It's only recently I've begin to talk to people.
I've been so shut up in my box that I can't open the cover to get out.
I don't think I ever want to get out.

I am strong, huh?
It's called self protection.
I am being wary.
I am being careful.

But I still can smile, because the world is still beautiful at times.

The sky is so dark and grey, and yet the sun still shines brighly to penetrate the clouds

A walk down memory lane

*Note to be taken: This post is full of pics.

Yeah. Was going through my photo album last night. I have had a great life. Sure, a student's life is tough *hint: UTAR student*, but friends and family like these make up for those in a thousand million fold. I used to wish that I could turn back time, and relive those moments, but now, I'm just glad that those wonderful times happened when I was around. Moving forward, making new memories, is what life is really all about. Live in the present, look towards the future.

2003 Form 3 members

2005 Form 5 members in Spain

Nan Hwa band in Spain

2005 clarinetists

2005 passing out

CNY with family

Burmahtel roomies *they are crazy people... lol*

2006 SAM bio class

Thank you for the memories

Ai Yin and me

2007 Bon Odori

Mooncake festival with housemates

2007 UTAR choir team

2007 FES UTAR choir team

Sg Kanching *beautiful waterfall*

Cable car coming down from Genting

2007 Kiwanis camp

Darling baby Copper

Grand aunt's bday in Phuket *she's 90 yrs old*

Cousins

Mummy and me *sounds like Marley and me?*

Phuket Fantasea *some kind of performance theater park*

Perak state level band competition *we got first, we always do =]*

UTAR FEStival 2008

Qing gong ye *mandarin*

Me, Michelle and Zhe Xin

Burmahtel reunion

National level state competition

UTAR music appreciation night

2008 passing out

Stupid Tango *but unbelievably smart at times*

2009 Pagentry in Wind

2009 UTAR Elements Nite

There are tonnes more pics, and many more that I didn't take with special friends. Doesn't matter, I still have time. We still have time.

By the way, my new best friends: Vibrio parahaemolyticus (purple) and Vibrio cholerae (green).

I read about them, I think about them, I worry about them not growing well, I worry about them not getting enough antibiotics, I worry that your agar home gets invaded by foreign substances, I practically worry about everything concerning them. When this is all over, I'll heave a sigh of relieve.

Wonder why I don't post anything about my life?

Because I have NO life.

Thanks to everything that is happening right now.

Thank you

Things have been rough this week, I've hit a low, but, just a moment of weakness. It'll pass.

Anyway, to my friends and family, this song is dedicated to you guys.

Love all of you!




If I lived to be a thousand years,
If I ruled the word – it’s hemispheres,
I could not repay the love you brought my way,
So, I want to say it now
To thank you for each day you gave me.

Thank you for the Mondays,
Saturdays and Sundays,
Everyday, the whole year through;
Thank you for the fun days,
All those number-one days,
Battles-to-be-won days, too;
I just want to say it,
Thank you for each day with…you.

We have just one life to seize the day,
We only have what time there is to say…
‘n’do what we must do, express our gratitude,
So, I whant to say it and sing it now to you.

Thank you for the Mondays,
Saturdays and Sundays,
Everyday, the whole year through;
Thank you for the fun days,
All those number-one days,
Battles-to-be-won days, too;
I just want to say it,
Thank you for each day with…you.

At the close of every day,
When I close my eyes to pray,
All I need to do, is just to think of you…
Then, all I need to say…is…

Thank you for the Mondays,
Saturdays and Sundays,
Everyday, the whole year through;
Thank you for the fun days,
All those number-one days,
Battles-to-be-won days, too;
I just want to say it,
Thank you for each day with…you.